Answered Prayers

Don't get excited. I have no news about the adoption. Last week was a tough week for me. I miss Andreas. I don't want to wait anymore! I want to see Estonia in summer. I don't want to have to travel during the school year. I don't want to have surgery again. I want this pain to go away!! I have been very busy demanding that my "wants" and "don't wants" be addressed, NOW if You please! Well,I guess I wasn't really demanding, but I was definitely whining and pleading. Nothing has happened as far as I can see. I am still waiting,and I am certainly still dealing with pain, but my prayers have been answered.

Over and over again I have "let my requests be known". Over and over again, "the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding" has been given to me. It is not that I pray a prayer and instantly feel better. Most of the time I still feel agitated and impatient. Usually, the pain does not go away. Somehow, though, something changes, and I know I have been heard. Somehow, there is a calm assurance that He is in control and wants what is best for me.

This past week, my prayers have been answered with a picture of my dog, Kody. Kody is not the most popular dog. He is not well-trained, and he isn't friendly to everyone, especially men. He barks too much, and runs away if he can get out the door. I am mostly to blame for his faults because I haven't taken the time to train him properly. But, Kody is completely devoted to me!! He is content to spend most of his time curled up at my feet. If I get up and move to another room, he jumps right up and follows. When I had to spend 2 days in bed because of the pain in my leg, he spent it lying beside me. Kody never complains that I am sitting too long when he would really like to go for a long walk. He doesn't grumble when my activity wakes him from a deep sleep. He just yawns, stretches, and follows me. I adore Kody. How could anyone not love someone who is so devoted to them? Still, I wasn't getting the point when Kody's image would pop into my head as I prayed. Finally, on Sunday, I heard the song, "Word of God, Speak". There is the line, please let me stay at rest, in Your holiness. Then, it clicked. In my mind, there was Kody, lying at my feet, totally at rest, and trusting in me. That is what I need to do! I am not very good at it, but when it happens, I am changed. What an amazing God, we have!!