Bad news, but it actually made me feel better.

I was so bummed when I opened our mailbox and once again our homestudy was not there! I skipped right over anger and frustration and dove into despair. I moped around in a fog for a few hours and then decided to call Barbara at AHI. She told me that Estonia has changed the rules again which means we won't be visiting any time soon.:( For some reason I started to feel better right away. Now the missing envelope is only keeping my from filing our I-800A. It just doesn't seem as important anymore. It isn't keeping us from travelling and meeting Andres, so I can wait. When it does come, probably tomorrow, I will send in the paperwork and wait, wait, wait. Our dossier is just about done and when we get our INS approval we can go visit. If we are lucky, we will get to visit in midwinter. Did I mention that Tallinn is on parallel with Stockholm, Sweden and Juneau, Alaska? Doesn't that sound like a fun time to go? Okay, now I'm getting sarcastic, I guess it bothered me more than I thought.
Anyway, I am not in despair, and I am no longer pulling my hair out. Today has been very busy, but I have had alot of quiet time to pray. The Lord has been good and has comforted me. He has also impressed upon me, my need to live in the present. If I can focus on doing the task at hand to His glory, I will see how precious my life is right now, and be greatful for what I already have. It is amazing how my outlook changed in a second. My 11y.o. son, Connor called me on my cell phone. He is so mature that I forget he is just a little guy. When I heard his voice on the phone he sounded so young and sweet that my heart just bubbled over with love. I would have missed it if I was still moping! A few minutes later, I was able to connect with, and comfort Meredith on the way home. Thank you, Lord, for adjusting my focus. We will get to Estonia, and Andres, in Your time.

My Connor boy.:)